Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Hi. The kids report that you are moving to the mountains. I'd love to find out about that if you want to tell me. :)
Below are my repiles
#1. I am still working out the specifics... I want to give you that accurate answer.. right now it is a coin toss...so stay tuened I will let you know soon when Jeff and I have decided the answer firmly amongst ourselves.
Forgive me for not writing back to you sooner.
It is funny the timing of your email. If you had emailed me just a few days earlier I would have had a quick and easy answer for you. If you had emailed me a few days later I would have had a response for you. But you happened to email right as were were on the cusp of discussing a change of plan, thus I was not able to answer the question at that time because I did not know the answer :). But we have discussed the plan, prayed about it, and confirmed it at the temple. So now I can discuss the plan because we have come to a decision.
Jeff and I moved here with the plans of buying our own home in two years. Once we moved here we fell in love so much with this ward and the members in it that we stopped discussing plans to move. Then we went through the year of the fire and miscarriages, and there was no extra anything to even consider moving an option.
The other day we found ourselves smack against the problem that we are not renting enough space for our family. Also we were reminded of our families goals to own some acres off in the boonies. With a new focus on our long term goals I went back to work, my main goal being to save a down payment to buy a home. This we planned would take 3-6 months of saving.
Several weeks ago we were contacted by a mortgage agent who seemed to have quite a good deal for us, but the deal ended in September. Thus we were left feeling that we could maybe get our home earlier then we planned if we closed by September. So we went house shopping and found the perfect home. Just as we were getting ready to make an offer we realised that the mortgage agent was offering a gimmick and we did not want to use this form of financing. Which again put the home buying plan off 3-6 months.
We defaulted back to the save for a few months then move plan, and were hopeful that the "perfect" home would still be on the market when we had pulled together enough savings.
Recently Granny has moved to Dee's home and we are now renting more of her house which makes us living her longer a much more practical plan.
I fond that while I was thinking about "my dream" to own a modest home on acres, and how close we were to obtaining it, I found that I was nervous. I did not feel settled about the plan we were working towards. I realised that the current financial status of our country makes me nervous about our ability to hold onto that home if we bought it. I do not know what bumps lie in the road ahead, and I was concerned with the current financial trend that I would loose my home as times got tougher. I did not want to get my dream home only to loose it during a financial bumpy time. For this reason I was feeling rather nervous over the plan to move.
I can not tell you how much owning a home on acres means to me. It has always been the "ultimate" future goal of our family since we were married. For me to put down this goal and set it aside was rather difficult for me. Jeff was feeling uneasy about the plan also, but was rather cautious to be as frank about his nerves because he knew how emotionally I was wrapped up in this plan. There have been a few times that I have joked that I will follow the Lord and do as he asks, until what he asks might stop my goal of getting a home, then I fear I would pick a home over him. Lol! So here I found myself stuck with that very choice. Continue with the plan to buy the home, and obtain the long awaited family goal. OR, trust your spirit when it tells you the plan is not good, and patiently put it aside for what the Lord wants you to do. Well it took me a week to be sure, but now I am.
We have decided not to move for about another two years. We will keep my extra job and Jeff will be getting another part time job also. In those two years we believe we can pay out of debt, finish building our long term food storage, and save of 5% down on a home. Also realestate market trends seem to suggest that homes will be less, or undervalued, at that time, also making it a good time to buy.
It may be that the people who buy the "good grapes house" (the name we gave the home we found, because of its vast amount of established grape vines with lovely grapes) by then will be experiencing financial hardship, and will entertain an offer for us to buy it from them, if we find we still want that very home the most.
I feel much more peace associated with this plan, I do not want to buy my dream home during a bad economy only to loose it. So we are staying here for another two years at this point.
Of course the upside to that is we get to have more time in this ward that we love :).
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
19 ¶ Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:
20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
My best laid plans have been continually over thrown by life and chance. At the end of it all I can confuse my self by looking over my shoulder searching for proofs of successes. On one look there is nothing over my shoulder but rubble and wrecked plans. And on another look what is back over my shoulder are events and experiences that make me who I am today. Either way I find my self wondering to myself, what good is it to work towards a goal, when success is determined (as it seems in my life) more by chance then by effort or desire.
If I were an experiment being documented by outside observers my life would look something like this. Here we have a ... lets say.. stick? Will this stick be a success the experimenters might wonder. "We don't know", is the conclusion, "lets put it to the test." What do the experimenters wish to see come of the stick? Maybe a tree, lets say a tree. The stick (me) is placed in the controlled environment (or rather uncontrolled environment; of the world) in order to "prove it". Periodically the sticks "home" is invaded by the observers. They pull out their magnifying glasses, test kits, and charts. "What can we measure here?" the observers ask themselves. They test and probe, chart and research. In the end they see little to no change. The stick was not "proven" a success during that last study, "we must put it back in the controlled environment again to see if it is "proven" in the next study," the observers conclude. On and on the experiment goes with still little changing on the exterior of the stick, and over time the stick is labeled with the other "unproven" sticks while not much worth or value is placed on it in the mean time. From the outside this is a very simple cut and dry experiment. But what is this like for the stick.
If the observers had thought to examine the ground around the stick for evidences of failed successes, or to video record the stick, the ground and time laps photography would reveal that what seemed like an unchanging stick had actually gone through many dynamic changes, though the successful results were not there to prove it at the end of each study. Come lets watch the time laps together so that you may get to know this stick a little better.
See the buds the stick is sprouting, see all the promise those buds hold. Alas, the frost has come in and killed the buds, and the ground around the stick is left with the evidence of their short lived success.
See now this time, new buds that grew to leaves. Alas that season is gone time has taken the leaves, turned them beautifully golden, and blown them to the ground.
See here not only has the buds grown leaves, but the leaves have grown to branches. Now a child in the neighborhood comes and attempts to swing on the branch before it is strong enough, dropping the forlorn twig as evidence at the base of the stick.
On and on the stick endures through the seasons and studies until the stick is not only growing branches but bearing fruit in one season. The fruit is all eaten, the seeds scattered further down the road to grow more sticks, and the branches cut off and burned for fire wood. Thus at the end of the study or at the end of the season the stick remains seemingly unchanged.
What is unseen by the observers is the biological energy the stick has invested into its own "proving" or "success". Also unseen is the many benefits the stick has given to the surrounding neighborhood, because the evidence was used up when the benefit recognised. Also unseen is the sticks great desire to be "proven" to be a "success". What else is unseen is the sticks great sorrow in having no proof left of its efforts, or physical evidence of its achievements. So the observers walk away shaking their heads, and mumbling to themselves about the disappointment they feel in the stick being "unproven" or "unsuccessful".
Left behind is a loan seemingly unchanged stick, crying out inside, for someone to measure him differently, so his true nature could be understood.
What is left for this stick to conclude? It desires greatly to be "proven" to be a "success"..... But that his success must be measured in terms of character, and not in terms of outside evidence, proof, or treasures.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Hello, I have not found much time to blog in the last while. I have been in training with Alpine Access. The training process is very involved and there is not extra time to browse while at work, and when work is done I have a greater need to get away from the computer and be mommy.
Working at home and homeschooling is going great. I had my worries. This is how I make it all work.
Lock the kids in the dungeon!
LOL! not really!
In order to work at home for alpine access one needs to meet the following requirement.
NO background noise. You can get fired if background noise is heard more then 3 times. FOR REAL!
Project: Keeping 4 fun loving happy kids as silent as little mouses from 8am-1pm EVERY week day?
Sound like a daunting task? This can be accomplished with the proper materials listed below.
1. Food glorious food (lots of it)
2. Separate space for the kids to play with as many closing doors as possible
inbetween you and them.
3. Computers (1 per child to be specific, much less then this and you run the risk of having knock down drag out fights that can be heard on your calls)
4. Learning games (so the time spent on the computer is not all waste)
5. A surprise bag (so you can pull out entertaining surprises when the children are having a hard time being happy and quiet)
This is what my day looks like.
Wake up - Feed & water chickens and plants. Wash a batch of dishes. Wash a batch of laundry. Eat.
Breakfast - assemble breakfast on the table for the kids so that they wake up to yummy food ready to eat.
Surprise - also place on the table today's entertainment surprise. Maybe something new. But also as effective is something old that has been put away out of reach. Books, learning games, computer learning CD's, crafts etc.
Lock up - close as many doors as you can on your way to your office.
Kids wake up to food and surprises and are self contained until it is about time for morning break.
Morning break - change any kids that need changed. Check on how the food was eaten. Clean up any food mess left. Assemble a snack on the table. Hug all the kids and listen to any complaints. Fix any computer problems the kids may be having. Find time to get a drink yourself or fit in a nature break. Rush back to your office closing all the doors. Log in for the next part of your shift.
Every break is like this.
Train your kids to come quietly into the office and wait to be signaled before speaking. If a child forgets this rule MUTE the phone.
End of the work shift. Log out. Turn off all computers, TV's and electronic entertainment equipment. After work time is live time, step away from the electronics.
Hug kids, listen to complaints, clean up snack mess, make lunch, get quality Mommy time in.
Family work time/ Family school time.
Send the kids off to play... and now take your break. Hopefully you will not crash out asleep on the bed, this will slow the rest of the day down :).
OH! did I forget the bribe??
I mentioned to the kids that Mama is working in order to help the family buy a home. If all the kids cooperate with Mama's work to buy a home then they also also get a reward...... A bunny! they could not be more thrilled. When we get to buy a home they get the reward of buying at least 1 White French Angora bunny. Which we will raise as an experiment to find out if we want to start breeding angora at the new farm.
OH the glorious computer! Nothing can entertain 4 crazy kids will as little mess, as little noise, as little fighting, as a computer. It is the perfect tool to enable the working mother some time to work. Just remember to use sparingly, turn them off when the work shift is done. Go outside and live and play when you can.
Now you know all about living and working and homeschooling at our home :)