Wednesday, February 27, 2008

My Anxious Little Angel Boy

Shortly after my young 2yo son was born I had the strong feeling that my family was not complete. That an anxious little boy was waiting up in heaven to get the opportunity to have a body. This impression never left me. Each month when I was fertile I could feel the call to get pregnant and give this anxious boy spirit a body. I was not shy in telling others this. Already I had four children "enough" by the social standard and people around were starting to put pressure on me to be happy with only my four. At each of these moments I told them with complete confidence that I knew one more child was to come into my family. I stopped short of saying one more boy, for that fact seemed to be between me and the Lord.

IamCurious was born in July of 2005 and in October of 2006 I found myself unexpectedly pregnant again. Normally our family tries to get pregnant after the "baby" of the family is two, thus spacing the children out by three years. This was a surprise. We do natural family planning, and this was the first surprise we had in eight years.

I am having a hard time focusing to write this because of the anxiety symptoms I am experiencing while writing this.

I was so overjoyed. I felt that I was a helpmeet to the Lord, and that the Lord had given me a baby inspite of our best efforts, because he knew what was best for me and the baby.

Never before in any of my pregnancies have I felt like I knew the personality of my child, the way I felt I knew the personality of this darling little boy. I would giggle at his sense of humor. He was considerate enough of me to "pick" to be born in August as I dearly wanted him to be. But the anxious little thing decided it was a good compromise if he got to pick his year, for I would have planned to have him in August a year later. I felt his little spirit at all times, many times when I was alone I would close my eyes and feel his spirit. It was a strong unique spirit that was determined and funny. I would tell everyone, with joy, that I could not wait for this little spirit to be born so I could meet him. And thus happily I went about the early month and a half of pregnancy.

I made cute little turtle ornaments, inorder to announce to the extended family that did not already know, that we were expecting again. The turtle has always been a symbol of my inutero babies because when my mother was expecting me, my sisters told her I must be a turtle because I was taking so long.

Unfortunately on Christmas day things took a change for the worst. My body was thrown into a miscarriage. And that is all I can seem to write about for now.

Hoping to get some sleep.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

I type...

57 words


That was fun :) I am sure I do not type that fast all the time but I was pushing things to see what was the fastest I could type.


Tuesday, February 19, 2008

This just warms my heart!

Tumbalinas newest blog entry is so cute.

"I am adopted, my name is Tumbelina. I am thinking of getting a snake, but mom wont let me. I'm 6 and a half, I'm in first grade. That's all."

For homeschool we were learning how to spell the word Love just before she started her blog. She was so cute about wanting to write about her family that she loved. At first I was not sure that she was even writing in her blog so I asked her what she was writing about and she chimed in "my family" in the sweetest way.

first entry said this " My favorite Mama is Mama. My favorite sister is Hugs and Angel. And my favorite Mama is Mama, *giggle* *giggle* *giggle*, that's so funny. ( "Again" Angel says. "Yes that's because I love her so much" Says Tumbelina) And my favorite brother is Curious George, the cute little face ."

This really means something. Considering the fact that she lived in nine homes before she lived permanently with us (when she was about three years old).

One of the best things that has come of this blogging is to give Tumbelina an outlet to just be herself. She is so eager to please and fit in that she runs in circles around Angel trying to be just like her. Many times she wants what Angelic wants, her favorite color is what Angelic's favorite color, and when ever Angelic is complemented she tries to do exactly what Angelic did so that she can get a complement also. But when we started blogging, she answered truthfully about her own likes and dislikes. It is a nice way for her to express her uniqueness without worrying about fitting in so much.


You Know You're Home Schooling When. .

I just had one of those "You Know You're Home Schooling When. . ." moments and posted it to Spirited Sons collection of funny things. Here was my post.

You know you are homeschooling when... You kids get out all the disposable bowls and cups and make a large stack almost touching the ceiling. And instead of getting mad (which you are tempted to do) you say "now count them" and consider buying extras just for manipulative play.

Guess how many cups they had stacked together 131... But I see now that I missed an opportunity, only a few more cups and we could have found out "how many cups does it take to reach the ceiling".... Alas, I am sure there will be a next time.

We are getting ready for our kitchen remodel this weekend. DH purchased enough frozen meals and crock pot meals and disposable dishes for us to live without a kitchen for ten days. So these cups were needed. Hopefully the kids got their fill and we wont see any more disposable dishes construction.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

The beautiful survey thing!

Juliette Tagged me!

A. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.
B. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
C. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

5 Things I was doing 10 years ago:

That would be in 98... WOW that is way far back... that is pre children time... I am not sure I can remember what life was like without children :)

1. I think Jeff and I were sealed in the temple that year ?? Maybe the year before.

2. I would have been expecting Eva! YEA!

3. This was the year of my FIRST house fire, then nine years later we had our second house fire. Not something I would have EVER opted to experience twice. Both fires started in the basement. #1 We were in a old home divided into five apartments. Either the lint from the dryer built up and caused a big fire. Or one of the residents threw a cigarette into the trash can full of lint by the dryer. I do not remember which, I think the second one was my guess, but it was the first... Old Dryer, Landlord that did not check up on it, etc. And the #2 fire happened on Grannies stove, I bumped it up while piling laundry on top of it... Goodness am I sooooo blessed that I did not loose my children to my own stupidity!!!

4. We were living two blocks from the temple in down town SLC UT.. We use to see lots of official people from the church head quarters hiking up the hill to church owned apartments and condos up by our place. It was so fun living in the heart of the city!

5. I was working at Inkleys. Wow am I glad I don't work there any more. And I missed a promotions because I was suppose to go and tour the factory on the morning I had the fire. My boss two bosses up was so upset that I did not just come in to work, in my P.J. with out a change of clothes, leave my cinders and ashes behind, because a fire is nothing, that he decided I was not promotion material.

5 Things on my to-do list today

1. Visit Grandparents to say Happy Valentines Day... Late :i

2. Write an important email.

3. Call Robin... Goodness I have been a bad friend and not responded quickly to her.

4. Finish my MAJOR clothing overhaul. I have two batches to go and then all my clothing will be sorted and dejunked and I will know what clothes my family needs or has too much of.

5. DISHES!!! eeekkk

6. (sorry I wanted to remember this one also) Get ready for church. Find my CD player for my class, and prepare my lesson, and make sure everyone has church clothes.

5 Snacks I enjoy

1. IKEA cinnamon rolls, with IKEA lingonberry soda, and IKEA hot dogs (because you know, they all might taste the same but coming from IKEA they just seem to have more pizzazz). We went and visited Christine to see her new baby and on the way home we had a van load of hungry children. So what did we do? We stopped at IKEA. MMMMMMMmmmm I LOVE those cinnamon rolls!

2.ANYTHING baked!! I am so excited to have my kitchen remodel after the fire done at the end of this month, and all of my kitchen stuff back in my own home. I plan to break out my Bosch and my Nutrimill and BAKE! YEA!!! I am going to make a bunch of whole wheat mixes for quick and easy baking, and try my hand at sourdough...

3,4 and 5. The new Ferrero Rocher's. Where is my Valentines day heart from DH so I can tell you the names. Ok we call the new Ferrero Prestige's our Vacations. The rules of "taking a vacation" is that both me and DH must be ALONE in the bedroom and we must eat our 'vacation' together. There is kind of a ceremony to the whole thing. First you start with the Rondnoir the new dark chocolate version, a strong and distinct flavor, making sure to get all the little dark chocolate crumbs out of your foil. Then you proceed to the classic Rocher enjoying all of them slowly, taking several bites to eat each small chocolate. And lastly you finish up your vacation with the perfect crescendo, coconut in it most divine confection EVER, Garden Coco. The lovely coconut flavor explodes in you mouth, it is amazing that anything can be co coconutty. This flavor also cleans your pallet perfectly leaving you perfectly content to not have more vacation... at least most of the time ;)

5 Things I would do if I were a Billionaire

1. Go to school and study Architecture or City Planning.

2. Pay for Jeff to become a Education Junkie, he would love to spend loads of money on learning any random subject he decided to learn about.

3. Pay off our remaining debt.

4. BUY LAND!! as big as possible. And build my dreamed of sustainable indigenous house. And have LOADS of land left over to give to my kids as they grew up.

5. Figure out how to make a business of selling sustainable indigenous houses on land.

3 of my bad habits:

1. Not waking up early.

2. Not doing my daily routine.

3. Staying up late

5 places I have lived

1. Provo UT as young child.

2. Grew up in Rosepark, SLC Ut.

3. Lived in West Valley UT as newly weds.

4. Lived in downtown SLC just before we had kids.

5. Lived back in Rosepark in a small condo we owned.

6. Now living in West Jordan UT (I have not strayed from home much)

5 Jobs I’ve had

Do I have to remember these :$

1. Delivering Newspapers at 12

2. McDonalds at 14

3. Frontier pies at 16

4. Megahertz corporation at 18, general desk and assistant work

5. Mesa Care Center.. Oh I forgot I lived in Mesa AZ. for a short while, training to become a CNA

5 Things people probably don’t know about me

1. I started a creative writing blog, just for fun :). Gives me something to busy my mind with while I am falling asleep without keeping me away worrying about something. And I think it will help inspire my children to do creative writing more.

2. I have published an online cookbook at I cannot take credit for all the recipes by any means. It is a compilation of all the recipes that we liked the best in our meal swap group we did. We would all cook a meal in a large batch big enough for the # of families in the swap, package it up, and swap meals with each other. This way we made on meal in large amounts but ended up with a huge variety of freezer meals, it was lots of fun.

3. When I was in high school I had a fun time hanging out with my older sisters friends and going ballroom dancing. My DH promised me he would learn to ballroom dance when we got married. Last night at the steaks sweetheart dance we worked allot on the foxtrot and being able to move together without messing up, it was loads of fun.

4. My favorite colors are Periwinkle and Sage.

5. My favorite food is my mothers potato salad on the 2nd day after it was made :)

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Drum Talk - Off to a good start

This last summer my BF Kerry called me up and told me about a great homeschool activity called Drum Talk , meeting at a near by park. Kerry and I are always interested in good ways to teach our children about music. This was only a few days after my house fire. And I had just washed my hair in some experimental hair thing that made my hair look like it was covered in Vaseline, even after three washes! But I was so excited I went anyways, I just wrapped my hair up tight and hoped noone noticed.

We loved George Grants interactive and fun way of teaching music. George is an expert in drums and has traveled the world learning to drum from different cultures. George talked about the current trend in teaching music, teach theory and notes first.
George said this most often this leads to musicians who can play alone, but can't keep in rhythm with a group.

Kerry and I both did Marching band, and we saw firsthand how having a sense of rhythm made all the difference in a performance.

George starts with fun ways to learn the rhythm, until you become the rhythm. (at least that is how I put it.)

Watch this homemade
Drum Talk Video and see the progression of simple activities, that seem strange, yet develop a great sense of rhythm and ability to drum.

George starts at the simple basics of the drum words and then carries it out to where the students are learning to read music,
but the rhythm is established before they read music.

For Kerry and I this was the perfect way to teach music, inexpensive materials and support for the parent to learn first and teach to the child. Teaching the most foundational music theory and building up in a fun way that you don't have to force on your children.
No "But, mom do I have to practice?" around here.
It is one big interactive game. Our kids love it.